as i write this, i want to rewrite it. tomorrow it will change. i'll feel differently. i believe in myself and the universe providing. i respect bold moves, no shame, and desires for making people feel uncomfortable. be it. i'm an intense critic of the culture and i find myself in. its becasue i question everything. i beleieve in life-like art. i'm skeptical of the definition of a woman. i don't believe in what i know. i don't believe in defining myself as one thing or another. but sometimes i do? i definitely accept execptions. in honestly with yourself and others. in dishonesty with others and art. self expolitation interests me. what is it? what does it mean? producing images of myself has become an obsession to try to pin down my identity. i prefer to explain my experience and utilize myself in my art. i'm searching for my 'identiy' which is actually changing as i'm writing so how the fuuCk? i don't feel the need to caption my life or remember every moment. (it happened. it exists). "but you're a photographer!!!" they cry. with a long sigh i ask, "well what is a photograph?"